Just when I thought I had handles on this

I could soften my guard behind false confidence

Just when I found humble pie insipid

Exempt from this blind side and firmly in its grip

Cuz I’m seduced by reaction

And under the influence

 

I’m slipping again

I’m up to old tricks off my wagon

I have no defense

I’m wreaking havoc

Wreaking havoc and consequence

 

I get reduced by my own willfulness

As I reach for my usual god replacements

Cuz I am rich with sanction

And lax in my steps

I’m slipping again

I’m up to old tricks off my wagon

I have no defense

I’m wreaking havoc

Wreaking havoc and consequence

If forgiveness is understanding

Then I offer mea culpa for the millionth time

From this toppling house of cards of mine

I am beaten by my impulsiveness

By this uncanny foreshadowing of regret

Cuz I’m repulsed by restriction

At least that’s my excuse

I’m slipping again

I’m up to old tricks off my wagon

I have no defense

I’m wreaking havoc

Wreaking havoc and consequence